journey of Khalidah

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Akal menjawab...aku keliru...

Khalidah 13 Jan 2009

Salam to all my dearest friends....

yeah..at last .....here I'm, in Australia...

yeah..it is worth to fight....

Well, my life here alhamdulillah. I have Emi (rakan seangkatan dari School Bio). Besides that, all Malaysian at Deakin Uni are good as well.  I can named several of them, Farhan & Qay (husband & wife), Nizam, Kak Anis & family, Kak Mimi& family...dan byk lagi....

but..well Am...u r rite..whenever u told me that I should realise that people like 'me' may face difficulties in order to find or to makes friends....well those who close to me know that I'm very pushy and dependent person...more over...statements sentap.....those who do not know me yet..dun be surprise...I may look very strong but the fact is I'm weak..damn weak....

I knew my weaknesses...well I have to face it anyway...As Tra said to me..I'm gadis tegar..(ketegaq)...then what can I do..that's the only defense system that I have... at least..besides pushy type that's now had annoyed my new friends...

well..Ra...people like me hardly to be understood...so complex..and miserable too....

to all my friend....this gonna b the first and last [I hope] u'll read about nonsense post...which I'll make sure that the externalities won't distract me.

My life is too short for hatred....I have tonnes of love to share with.....I'll let it flow and shall share it with others as well. I can't promise happiness or cherish all the moment, but I'll always be a shoulder or companion for those who needs me and be nice on me......

One told me not to give up what ever it takes when it regarding our dream.

One told me it is ok to take a break when ever I feel tired but do not quit.

One told me if the mountain is too high, if I must get to the other side of it, then I have to climb it, if can't I have to walk around it but if  it is still hard to do then I have to get through the mountain because I must be at the other side of the mountain

"Science is the topography of ignorance.  ~Oliver Wendell Holmes, Sr., Medical Essays, 1883"

I'm yet not  a PhD candidate but gonna b one soon. Being postgraduate student I'd learned to be indipendent. Seek for the information and explaination by myself. Less supervision is a common.  My research findings...herm..

"The most exciting phrase to hear in science, the one that heralds the most discoveries, is not "Eureka!" (I found it!) but "That's funny..."  ~Isaac Asimov"

That's make sense coz i did happen to me not once but most of d time.

Being with PhD candidate(s) from different part of the world taught me lot of things....enthusiastic, passionate, keen, erudite and never the less, don't care & don't bother attitude.

As far as I concern,

PhD is about:

1. MIN supervision
2. LOTS of reading
3. LOTS of discussion
4. LOTS of time consuming
5. LOTS of pressure
6. LOTS of stress
7. MIN of rest
8. LOTS of YOURSELF!

none the less the SUPERVISOR(s)....

This entry can be  considered as a reminder for me as well, when ever I have to deal with DON'T BOTHER DON'T CARE  attitude among minority of PhD candidate which describe....below

"I am compelled to fear that science will be used to promote the power of dominant groups rather than to make men happy.  ~Bertrand Russell, Icarus, or the Future of Science, 1925"

Perhaps this DBDC PhD candidate may not serve as scientist or at least as  an academician...

REMINDER : DO NOT TARNISH PhD status by including 'oneself ' into this DBDC group...

Of all created comforts, God is the lender; you are the borrower, not the owner.
Ernest Rutherford;

 [paddy field open fire to eliminate the parasite that attack paddy: Merbok]

 [sea view from Gurney Drive]

[Cochin, India]

[Some where in Sabah, photo by Nurul Hanisah Rozhan, 9 years]

29 Jan 2009

I couldn't eat , couldn't sleep...that's bring me to buzz Am, Gosh tomorrow gonna b a tough day for me...IELTS's result will be release on 30 Jan 2009. Only with that result I'll be able to get FIRM offer letter from Deakin Uni which latter shall be procede by KPT.

owh...that nite really killing me...

30 Jan 2009

Journey from my home (Sg. Petani) to USM seems to be longer than usual. my heart pounding unsually, I couldn't bear any consequences...

At 9 am, I went to IDP with hope and courage...Frankly I do confident on the exam day but still...Reaching the compound, I hardly breath but then I pull myself together and climb the stair case to IDP office. Miss Yee Hor request for my ID and she passed me the envelope..

My tears waiting the moment to burst while my hand pulling out the result...'Alhamdulillah' though I couldn't believe what I saw on that moment....all my praise and gratefull to Allah...I made through for English requirement...[does it important? yes it does...knowing that I can do is not enough...it must be translated into a documentation that can be evaluated]

Miss Yeee Hor told me that most probably on Monday I'll get the FIRM offer from DU...what a surprise at 2pm, she call me saying that Miss Lola Robin had send me the FIRM offer...

things happened so fast ...

I told my Prof Roshada and at that moment Dr Bada was also around.

Dr Bada "welcome to the world of loneliness, stresfull and full of sorrow"

Prof Roshada " Yeah.. u r rite" replying to Dr Bada..." and I wonder why you choose this path" she says in a smiling face...

" I do aware of what I want...the path that I chose full of exciment and adventure....though my frenz put it in different manner..

31 Jan & 1 Feb 2009

I can't do any...my brain & body kinda separated...I'm in cloud 9..gosh..this happiness

2 Feb 2009

going to IDP for visa and later to HR for KPT ..."Hasbunallah wa nikmal wakil..."

 Prof Fatah Public Lecture

Schedule of Public lectures:
Title: Tilapia culture today and tomorrow
Date: February 06, 2009
Time: 10 a.m. – 11 a.m.
Venue: IPS training room, Institute of Graduate Studies, USM, Penang
 
Title: How to design, conduct and write scientific research
This one day programme includes:
Ø  How to design scientific experiments
Ø  How to conduct scientific experiments
Ø  How to write scientific papers and get your work published in peer reviewed international journals
Ø  How to present your work at a scientific conference: Mental and psychological preparation
Date: February 16, 2009
Time: 10 a.m to 1p.m
            2p.m to 5 p.m

Venue: IPS training room, Institute of Graduate Studies, USM, Penang
WHO SHOULD ATTEND
Scientists, Under - Graduate and Post graduate Students, Researchers involved in Applied Sciences.
 
Title: Current trends in aquaculture nutrition research
Date: February 27, 2009
Time: 10 a.m to 11 a.m
Venue: IPS training room, Institute of Graduate Studies, USM, Penang
 
Title: Tilapia Nutrition
Date: March 12, 2009
Time: 10 a.m. – 11 a.m.
Venue: IPS training room, Institute of Graduate Studies, USM, Penang
 
Organizer: Professor Roshada Hashim
                    Dean, Institute of Graduate studies
                    Universiti Sains Malaysia, Penang
Email: roshadahashim@gmail.com
For further enquiries please contact: Dr. Sarita Ramachandran
Email: sarita75in@yahoo.com
Mobile number: 0124508427        

Jan 5th 2009:

Prof Fatah from Alexendria University reached Penang as a Visiting Professor to USM. I'm so delighted to meet him. High profile scholar I would describe him. He is expected to stay in Penang for 3 months which I believe that I should take this chance to learn from him. As a scientist and scholar he potray a tremendous personality. I do understand the reasons my supervisor, Prof Roshada trained and molded me in a hard way coz nothing come easy. As life never fair to us. We should be positive and greatful instead. Moreover, to have the right we have to fight for it.

Jan 8th to 10th:

Pumpkin Race at SMK Labu. This is volunteer job. No one force anyone to do any if they dun want to do so...All of these started last year while I'm still finishing my Masters thesis writing. Pumpkin Race 4 had pave a new path in my life. Watching faces of the future, left a humongous impact in me. I'm obligate to these faces  of the future, though in a very minor step.

This year, Pumpkin Race 5, had created its own drama...[students, mentors and me]. These 'precious gems' must be polished coz  in 'em there are talents, skills and gifts. As Kak Gee, Am and Abg Asri have faith in 'em, yeah...me tooo...there are faces that I'll post later to tell evry one bout their courages and talents.

I'm doing this seriously..and I hope that Allah will always assist me and ease me in doing so no matter where I'll be or when.....

Ah...one more thing, the school is rural area school, which most of high class and aristicrate people may not want to look at 'em even with an eye. But as I said...these gems gonna create and colour the future.